been a rather boring day today.... went down to watch hockey match to pass my time... hmmm... guess hockey is really out of my life now... no more itch that i wanna be on the field when i see a game... no more temptation... no longer thinking that i might regret that i stop playing... guess its time to let go of it totally after playing for 8 years... though i did have the ambition of playing for the national team before.... anyhow, i threw it away when i have the chance... so no point looking back....

will i eventually get back to playing??????? maybe... thats a big maybe.... maybe when my interest rekindles.... maybe when my strive for achievement comes back to me.... right now... i can't be bothered abt what i can achieve with this life of mine... it looks bland....