Its been an eventful weekend... let me start off from Fridae... went down to Selegie with DaRLiN to meet up with Ah min, Ah leng and Chris for soya bean... head down to Mox after that... saw Melly, Shan, Rice, JJ, Mate, Kazu and Lynn.... saw a performance there... rather funny... went for supper after that at chinatown... me, DaRLiN, chris took ah leng's car and ah min forsake the car to walk to the supper place with mate, kazu and lynn.. hehe... after the supper, we (minus mate, lynn and kazu) head down to One Fullerton.. sat near the Merlion... talk throughout the night till 4plus... DaRLIN slept over at my place that night... been a long time since DaRLiN stayed over... nice time hugging her to sleep...

Went Sengkang with DaRLiN for her dental appointment on sat morning... after that Ah leng called us out... hehe... surprising that she is the one who called.... head down to Paragon for lunch with them at Ding Tai Fung... the food there wasn't that fantastic except for the xiao long bao.... pretty expensive too... eat eat eat... then shop shop.. then go BBoss drink drink... after that me and DaRLiN head down to wala... nice music for the night... nice sensual slow songs... head home at 12plus...

Went for bike prac this morning... refuses to wake up at first.. too many late nites... as usual.. i fail this prac AGAIN!!! this is the 3rd time i took this session liao... sian man... gotta take a week break before i go for it again.... met DaRLiN after my prac.. head home rest then cook a dish for my mum for her dinner.... met up with Ah min, Chris and Ah leng at amoy street for dindin... finally satisfied my cravings for the cereal prawns.. they have got really fantastic prawns there man... Yummy!! finger licking good!!! very cheap also... 4 dishes, 1 soup and 5 rice for $65... head down to Clarke Quay for the reverse bunggee... was pretty scared at first before going up the ride... hands turn really cold... hahaha... but its really fun... had a good time screaming and laughing up on the ride.... poor Chris got dragged to take the ride too when she haven taken any such rides in her life before... Brave gal!!! after that its home sweet home and after this, its Bedtime!!! hahaha... Zzzz.....

"Work on the relationship to make it grow
And in time you will know
If this is the love, you've waited your life for
You will never want or need... anything more"

How do i make it grow?? i've got no clue now... lost...

To DaRLiN,

I wish there will be no more quarrels too... I hate the quarrels as much as you do... wish it never even started... the quarrels are getting more and more frequent.. more and more heated up each time... I cannot take the pressure of them all... its tearing me apart...

you don't have to apologize to me at all... its not your fault... maybe its mine for starting the quarrels... but i guess its in my character to the views i see... like i told you before... our characters are different.. the way we see things are different... our priorities are different... one way or another, we are bound to clash which have happen so often now... and one similiarity that we have is we are freaking stubborn...

how are we gonna recolve all this when everytime i wanna talk things out and you just keep quiet? i know that you don't wanna aggrevate things... i know its not your character to talk under such situations... but i wanna hear from you.. know what you feel and things... sometimes thinking that i understand you well is not enough... i might be wrong... and if u are gonna keep quiet and not tell me about it... how am i suppose to know what you want?

i wanna let you know... you don't irritate me... you are not a pest... i dun love pests... I LOVE YOU... and i have not changed... nor have i given up hope on this relationship... its just that i have lost the confidence in myself.. the patience in myself... you know that i hate failing in things i do.. never do i accept failures.. but everytime, i try.. things dun seem to improve... i am becoming desperate!! i dun want to make you feel so miserable... i rather end everything than having to see the miserable look on you i am so used to seeing before we got together... i dun want to see that... it pains me...

all i want is someone who can just give that bit of attention to me... to bring self-confidence in myself that i lack so badly... to understand me.. thats all i want... am i asking too much?? maybe...

i'm sorry for my harsh tone just now... i lost my head... forgive me... love ya lots...

just got home... went to watch Shrek 2 with my bro and DaRLiN... its a good show... had a good laugh... better than the first one... my brother is a PIG!!! he ate lotsa popcorn!!! unbelieveable!! he keep asking me: " i want abit more" and the thing is he ate dinner before we went out... then me and DaRLiN ate dinner at Baker's Inn.. he had a share of the pasta too... i think he ate one third of the popcorn and half cup of Coke... yet he is still so skinny! how unfair!!!

shall head to bed now... tired and vexed up on so many stuff... how i wish i can just lose my memory and not remember everything... no worries... just live happily...

reported sick today... got flu and fever last night... feeling so weak now... was actually having flu yesterday morning... wanted to go see the doctor at 3pm yesterday... but Jane and another colleague dun wanna let me leave... they were like saying: "dun always go see doctor.. your body always so weak.. should just endure and like your body go fight the virus..." i was like thinking.. come on lor... if my body is strong enough to fight the virus.. i wouldn't have fallen sick in the first place!! Bird head!! They just wanted to settle the customer issue if not they cannot ship out the goods.. freaking hell... think i dunno izzit? in the end, i stayed till work ended... reached home and started getting a fever...

DaRLiN came over to my place last night... feels so weird.. we just locked ourselves in the room... we din even take dinner... maybe we are just scared that my mum will come question us.. haven't really been on talking terms with my mum since wednesday... things got worse on thursday when i found my ring gone and i confronted her... and the reason my dad gave me for taking the ring is hilarious man... do i look like some idiot or what? give me a better excuse next time... maybe they know that i wun go confront my dad.. sigh.. when will this be over??? just feels so much of moving out...

just got home... went to watch one night in mongkok with DaRLiN, mate, kazu and lynn (?? hope i got the name right) and my cousins, Peimin and Peiyan... though we sat separately... was a average show.. a normal Hong Kong production on the secret society.. head down to Suntec after the movie to meet Ashburn, AF and mic... had a good laugh from mate's lame jokes...hahaha... thats a usual thing to do now.. when u go out with her nowadays...

Receive the results for my Riding Theory Test... I pass!!!!!! hehee... additional motivation for me to finish my bike practical asap to procede to the road....

hmmm... should i get a bike after i get my liscense then go take a car driving liscense or should i get the car driving liscense first before buying a bike????

another terrible day of heated up argument... so sick n tired... thank god things are fine now... but i'm skipping work tmr... cannot face anyone... hai..

went Wala Wala last night... was a nice cool place... really impressive as its my first time there.... the live band was well cool.... especially the female lead singer (she's les).. Cute!! Went there with DaRLiN and met up with Melly and Joe... Shan, JJ and Karen came along later... DaRLiN bought the album from the band... nice songs... the crowd there is great... so spontaneous... everyone just sang along with the band except me... hahaha... as usual....

as for today... first time cooking a dish... hehe... of course its with the help of DaRLiN... i dun like washing raw stuff and getting my hands stinky... keke.... cooked Deep Fried Chilli Chicken... taste pretty good just that the chilli is abit sweet and the chicken alittle tough... had a fun time cooking... shall learn more recipes from Amos... then i can try it myself... but cooking can be an expensive hobby man... every dish requires so many different ingredients... Yawnzzz... off to bed now... got to go for my bike practical tmr... hopefully i'll pass this time (prays i wun fall again... no more burns and injures).... ZZzzzz...........

just got back home... pretty tired... the sleepybud got into me at 11 plus... hahha... thats my sleeping time for the past 2 days... hmmm... went town after work to catch Kill Bill Vol. 2 with DaRLiN... pretty comical just like the first one.. enjoyed it... after that walked down to Starbucks at Califonia fitness to meet up with Chris, Serene and Ah min... had a good time laughing about dirty jokes... well... what to expect when ah min's around... :P headed down to Mox after that.... saw Landy, Trisha and Andrea there... nice relaxing atmosphere with lotsa mature adults... unlike Mad Monks!!! had a drink then off we go for supper at this coffee shop at Outram... the nasi lemak there is not bad... its home sweet home after that....
Yawnzzz..... DaRLiN take care of yourself k... remember to take your medi... Muacks!! *Snorts*