To DaRLiN,

I wish there will be no more quarrels too... I hate the quarrels as much as you do... wish it never even started... the quarrels are getting more and more frequent.. more and more heated up each time... I cannot take the pressure of them all... its tearing me apart...

you don't have to apologize to me at all... its not your fault... maybe its mine for starting the quarrels... but i guess its in my character to the views i see... like i told you before... our characters are different.. the way we see things are different... our priorities are different... one way or another, we are bound to clash which have happen so often now... and one similiarity that we have is we are freaking stubborn...

how are we gonna recolve all this when everytime i wanna talk things out and you just keep quiet? i know that you don't wanna aggrevate things... i know its not your character to talk under such situations... but i wanna hear from you.. know what you feel and things... sometimes thinking that i understand you well is not enough... i might be wrong... and if u are gonna keep quiet and not tell me about it... how am i suppose to know what you want?

i wanna let you know... you don't irritate me... you are not a pest... i dun love pests... I LOVE YOU... and i have not changed... nor have i given up hope on this relationship... its just that i have lost the confidence in myself.. the patience in myself... you know that i hate failing in things i do.. never do i accept failures.. but everytime, i try.. things dun seem to improve... i am becoming desperate!! i dun want to make you feel so miserable... i rather end everything than having to see the miserable look on you i am so used to seeing before we got together... i dun want to see that... it pains me...

all i want is someone who can just give that bit of attention to me... to bring self-confidence in myself that i lack so badly... to understand me.. thats all i want... am i asking too much?? maybe...

i'm sorry for my harsh tone just now... i lost my head... forgive me... love ya lots...