Friday, January 28, 2005

I tender my resignation yesterday... came as a real big surprise for the boss... The first thing he told me was:" your resignation made me feels so pathetic." (He said it in Cantonese)... Till now, i still dun understand why did he say that... maybe he feels that if i'm gone... there will be no one to help him with all his data, reports and presentation slides which is not part of my job at all... at times i feel that i'm like a clerk to him rather than an engineer and thats probably 1 of the reason that i wanted to leave the company... Everyone was pretty shocked when i told them abt it as well... they all thought that i'm lying to them... My boss avoided eye contact with me the whole day that day... coming to talk to me abt it only when its almost knock off... He somehow whispered that "ain't i afraid that work is gonna be very tough for him?" when we are walking to the conference room... I replied with a loud "HUH???" He asked me alot of questions.. somehow i can feel that he feels really uneasy talking abt this issue with me... he has got lotsa of evaluations that he wants me to help him with for the coming year... telling me of the direction and plans he is gonna take... too bad... its just too late... where are u when i needed your advise and solutions?? Hiding in another department and coming out when the coast is clear.. or simply just keep quiet... where's the direction u are supposed to give me for all my projects?? u gave me none... always telling all the actions to that beloved china 'son' of yours... u din even correct me when the observations i made are wrong... i had to bear the black wok myself when i had to present the damn findings to the director... all u know is to keep quiet and rubbing salt in.... the more i stayed in this company.. the more i'm tired of your sheep's clothing... the more disrespect i'll show u... i'm just too tired of u... i might not be the best as compared to the others.. but u never appreciated me... the praises u gave out are just too fake... u did that cos u need my help to compile loads of rubbish for u... i'm just glad i'm finally getting out of here... at least its worth the risk of going to explore another area which i got no experience in.... i will miss everybody but definately not u... u simply sucks to the core!!! ask the GM to talk me out of it... but i can say it wun make any difference to my decision of leaving... cos he sucks as much as u do....