i'm back... its been an emotional trip.. i dun think i wanna go into deep details about it... my worst fears are confirmed... my instinct before i left couldn't have been more accurate... i tried asking her back.. but my pleas are in vain... i guess i really lost her... time to wake up... time to stop harbouring hopes that things will be better... i will only hurt myself more... if its really meant to be.. she'll come back to me... but the chances of her coming back to me is minimum. more likely she will be with someone else... someone else much better than me.. someone who can understands her better.. someone who can take care of her better than i do.. someone who can make her happy which i can't do.. i should move on... everything else are just plain memories... crying for anymore days are just tears.. nothing's gonna change... face the fact... she's out of my life...

everything's easier said than done.. i'm just plain hopeless and useless...