haven been doing much lately... busy working on presentations and projects... 2 projects to be due tomorrow... i guess i'm in a state where i can't be bothered with work... no motivation... no mood... can't be bothered... any suggestions by my boss i'll just do what i can if not fuck it... this is bad... the last time i felt this way was when i wanna quit my previous job... not this time i know i can't leave just as i wish... i need one which can pay me.... for my car and my parents and my brother's education in the future... the thought of it scares me to bits... it just seems to me that that day seems to be looming closer and i'm not the least prepared for it.... and i still dunno what i wanna do in my life... i'm living it without a direction..... and i hate it during appraisals when they always ask what are ur future plans and every single time my answer would be i dunno... it dun reflect well... but i rather be honest than shit my way to make myself impressive...

just gotten my mum a new refrigerator... she likes it.... hehe
my brother a new gameboy game...
my dad... erm... be a taxi driver for him as and when he calls even when i'm in hougang i have to drive back for him?? pass him my car when he needs it cos its raining and i get home on a bike drenched in the rain?? damn.... he still can go out when we dun have a car... but now... with the rain.. no car around he can't get out but i can??? maybe the raindrops wun hit on me...... ironic....