finally i'm back... one and a half weeks past just like that... training in germany was good... paris was nice and relaxing with great sceneries... did alot of thinking while i was there... my final thoughts on some issues and ppl...
well.. to sum it all.. it is just a disappointment to know the true colours of ppl that u know who u once called frens... when things occur whether is it for real or someone's wonderful imagination, all shit comes out of it... for whatever reason that makes them react or behave... god knows which only they themselves can understand or know the real reason behind... but at least its not too late to find out the real person they really.... like everyone says u only need one true fren... everyone else can be passerbyes... for one person who u thought knows u well enough after spending some time with u.. u thought that that person will see whats right and wrong but... no i'm wrong once again abt this person... blind to see and hear... listening only to stories which i god damn know from some assholes who i dunno hear it from where when i dun even fucking talk to that bitch.... its easier pushing the blame to someone i guess... u dun wanna keep in contact and u push the blame to me when u heard stuff from somebody else... what am i suppose to do? write an email to u telling u abt my personal life?? dun pretend u care when u come and goes as u wish... and the last thing i need to do is to believe ur lies that u have forever been telling... white lies are still lies... does that not make u a liar? and its time u stop stamping over my head.. dun expect me to believe u when u say one reason for leaving and the next moment u are with someone else... who r u trying to kid? does that problem not surface with any person?? i've been blind.. but now i'm not anymore... another someone all i can say is naive... believing everything that u hear instantly.. dun tell me that u dun wan to say anything in the case of misinterpretation.... where did that someone that tells u stuff get the information from when i dun even talk to that person? no misinterpretation in that manner? how many times have u blown the cover of that someone u listen and believe in? how logical... believe all u want to when u knows whats happening.... sometimes u just need to sit down and use your brain alittle more... maybe sometimes ppl are good at attacking someone to defend themselves... take it as i'm an asshole or whatever... but whatever that happen is mutual... u know it better.... and lastly of all... i'm not been bias but i got absolutely no respect for this someone... u mentioned that u know the least but it seems like everything comes out from your damn bloody mouth... i got no right to get an explaination from u... neither do u have the right to interfer in the matters when u know nuts abt whats happening... best of all... changing my words to other ppl... well... what can i say?? smart move... cos i have got no evidence against u!! hypocrite! maybe its just sour grapes.... and i dun understand the reason for the comparison being done against me.... u wanna compare... make sure u achieve it man... dun be just blowing ur trumpet when u are empty inside.... i'll be glad to be ur benchmark and happy for u if u achieve it.... and get a fucking job if u got nothing better to do then to think of stuff to bitch abt to others... so do u see the usual ppl asking u out now that i dun hang out with that someone anymore?? figure out y... time for some self reflection man... and stop going on abt ur lies when it has already been exposed....

its no wonder that human only use 2% of their brains cos they dun bother thinking when everything is right in front of them... and its easier to point the fingers at others than to look at themselves in the mirror to see if they did anything wrong.... enough of my 2 cents worth.. whatever the outcome this entry has.. i dun give a shit... my conscious is clear..... stay away from me if i'm such a jerk....

off to bed... got to work tmr... shall update on my visit to Paris and Germany soon...