fuck up... now my dad tells me he never says that he will pay for the bike instalment... he says he will only help if i can't pay.... scold me for going out all the time... saying i should be able to pay with my current pay... i'm earning 2000++ not 20000++!!!!! even if i wanna sell the bike off now... i can't... i got to top up another 1000 bucks to sell it off!!! fucker.... u are in debts so am i.... u get ur money from loansharks... i get my money from betting... we are equal... dun scold me when u are no better... stop all ur visits to your nightclubs man.... i apply a credit card for u not to visit prostitutes... and stop spending on ur damn mistress... fucking bitch... and i have to cover up for u when mum sees the damn bill!! u think she's stupid??? u say that u wish u had money so that mum can go for operation on her leg.. then stop visiting all the nightclubs!!! save that few hundred dollars per month!!! i wish i could have the money to pay for the operation... it hurts me seeing her limping around the house... but i dun have any spare money at all!! u have!!! since when u see that i buy things for myself anymore?? i dun even have the money to repair my broken glasses... she shows me tons of things that she dig from ur damn cupboard... and i have to pretend i dunno what it is.... i dun wanna lie!!!!!!! and i dun wanna cover ur fucking lies!!! what do u want me to say when she shows me pictures of woman taken with u?? how do u want me to react when i see photos of naked woman in ur handphone??? what am i suppose to say when mum cries in front of me?? u complained that i'm never home... what abt u?? when have u ever been home?? there's nothing in the house.... stay at home for what fuck sake?? i stay at home.. mum scream at me when that little rascal misbehaves... i'm going crazy!!! i feel like dying.... i dun like to be in the middle.... u say u will run away if ur debts get heavier... y dun u just go?? no one needs u at home... i treat this place as a hotel just like u do... i throw my tantrums when i dun get what i want... i learn all these from u... so dun come scolding me... u make me what i am today... from ur genes... luckily i'm gay... if not there will be another fucker in this world... i hate u... mum.. i'm sorry...