Oct trip to Germany is confirmed... applied for leave too on the 22nd so its a long weekend... planning to go visit Venice and London after the training ends in Germany... already check out the plane tickets to the 2 locations from Germany.. air fare is around $300... got to check out the hotels... guess i need around 1K to fulfill the trip... too short a period to save up this amount with debts mounting sky high for my car downpayment, soccer debts, phone bills... gosh! and Hui Xian says she will lend me the money for the trip first... sigh... when will i ever be able to clear all man? amount is around 5K in total... but what the heck i can't be bothered.. i really need a holiday... this place is irking me out... especially the ppl around... so hypocritical saying 1 thing to somebody and another to someone else (how dumb when everybody knows each other??)... pathetic always trying to gain sympathy and also pretending that its everyone else fault but theirs... imaginative when things around dun even exist (a pity to not be a movie director.. a waste of talent)... and lastly a big big liar (well.. i guess they got to cover their own ass.. can't blame them i suppose)... guess i'm in a bitchy mood tonight but i'm not alone sharing the thoughts.. others feel the same way... this shows i'm not the one with the problem... so fuck it if they happen to read it... i dun give a shit... it doesn't pay to be kind anyway... its a survival world out here... to hell with others... Fuck off!!